help me please

I dunno why but i'm feeling dam stressed out about everything.

Nate's cradle cap isn't disappearing and its getting worse. It looks terrible and not being able to do anything about doing something about it already makes me feel worse. I've tried Dentinox but it doesn't work.

Neither does Olivin. Now he's hands reach slightly above his head so he's able to start scratching his scalp.

He hasn't even learnt to reach for things let alone grip things but he's able to Scratch his scalp! That's not supposed to happen and I'm not too excited about it. Happening in that order.

I'm starting work tomorrow and even though i know my dad can help me out when i have to leave the house to shoot, i'm still stressed out about starting work. What if my batteries are not charged on time because i'm too busy expressing milk and feeding the baby and i forget to put the charger on? Worse still. What if i forget to bathe nate or change his diaper or express milk and feed him? I'll have a hungry dirty baby with engorgement on the side.

I'm stressed that all the conversation that i'm having with my husband is what time nate had his last feed and diaper changed. All we share is: talk about baby not baby talk with each other. I'm worrying that he will start to get bored of me and hate living here in thomson as opposed to living in Pasir Ris. I'm stressed that i'm not seemingly as felial as he is.

I'm stressed that I do not have enough money to pay for things. To pay for infant care if i ever need to put nate in infant care. Money to pay every dam trip to the ped. Money to pay for every diaper to make sure that Nate doesn't suffer from diaper rash. I'm stressed about having not enough space to keep my frozen expressed milk and whether i'll be too hasty in deciding to buy a chest freezer (a small one which still costs about $600) just to keep all that milk which he can't finish anyway. And then where to put it.

I'm stressed that i'm supposed to let go and Let God but inspite of knowing that, i'm worrying about every dam thing. I thank God for all the blessings but i'm still stressed about worldly things.

I'm stressed that my policy of not ranting on the blog has failed after i post this note.

This is getting to be depressing and yes you guessed it.

I'm stressed about that too.